I'm going to screw this up some how.

I know I am.
But I guess saying that is setting myself up for failure.

I'm trying so hard to be responsible and try and deal with the trivial social situations that are my life. But I can't help but be insecure and be that jealous crazy girlfriend.

Fuck.

I'm friends with one of my ex boyfriends and I've been going to him for advice about myself lately. If anyone would be able to point out my faux pas it would be him.

In this particular case, this one girl, who everyone seems to love, and have been told by someone who is always around her of her deep flaws.

...

Honestly, I'm making this a bigger deal than it needs to be. I'm giving her way too much effort and it's pretty disgusting how catty I am acting. (Talk about almost immediate revelation as I was typing this).

I'm worth it. If he was interested in her, he would have pursued her...and it was like my friend told me earlier ...I left the place with him. Not the other way around.

I just need a breather.
I need to fucking let go of the situation.

There is just so much pent up frustration ...

Well I was going to write more, but I think this was just the breaking point of my emotional fever.

For your enjoyment.