What I never wanted.

How is it that I attract the people I don't want?

Is it my blatant disregard for them that make them pine for me?
Is it my flirty nature that intrigues them and makes them think that because I'm available, I'm interested.

Sorry to say. I'm not.
And I wish they would get the picture.

It makes me realize how much of a nuisance I can be at times. But I've tried to stay away from being like that.
I think this semester I've done a relatively good job at doing so.

But jumping the gun as always. I guess, like the motif in my life, staying single is inevitable.
Despite my looks, body, charm, and charisma.
Sometimes I wish I was a man.

I would go after someone I want and would smother them with affection.

But do I even want that now? I guess so, In the back of my head I tend to drift off with thoughts of this boy...but again, like everyone has been telling me. It's pointless. (I'm going to cease communication from him from now on. I think it would be better that way.)

But even if I talk trash behind their backs (very lady like), even if I ignore all advances and tell them that I have other things to do time after time.
Why do they persist?

Why don't others persist. Is it my punishment for something I did in a prior life? Or a constant karma kick for being semi-vile with these individuals.

I wish some things would sort themselves out.

For your enjoyment.